whydoibother..
Why do i bother? Everytime life starts getting better, my father has to turn out to be even more of a dickhead and ruin it.. Every. Single. Time!
I dont know why i continue.. Life is starting to get better then i come home from school and then my world goes all wrong..
I guess the only things making me stay strong is music and my imagination.. And books.. Yes books..
Well guess I better finish this up and go to bed before he comes in and starts being even more of a dickhead.. I swear i’ve cried more this year then my entire life.. People might be disappointed in me but fucking hell.. I just start trying to fix up my life but my family make it harder.. I really dont think I can live like this….
Sometimes i just wish i never had to come home from school.. Yes even if i was still at the other school, I’d be wishing i never had to come home. Because really? I could actually stand it.. But having my father angry and having to suffer it all the time? It sucks. I’ve known him my entire life. I’ve only known people at the old school for a few years. And would have to suffer only a few more years around them. School > Home right now..